When too much thinking comes your way…

I shall teach myself to think less. Everything around makes me think. A sight of a man crossing the road made me weave a long story about him in mind. That story kept me occupied till I reach office. A conversation I heard from someone yesterday, it made me think. The change of expression on a friend’s face, that made me think. Ultimately, I think about everything. Not to mention, they steal so much time from me.

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Is it a girl’s nature to think too much? At least I have read so. Oh! In that case, I should somehow learn to curb this habit. It’s overwhelming at the end of the day. I can do better things. Now, I get a clarity. It is not “thinking”. It’s perhaps “day-dreaming”. A few are day-dreaming. To say, the one I mentioned above about a man who crossed the road. But, the thought that came up to my mind when I heard a conversation yesterday, that wasn’t day-dreaming. I went through my own phases of my life, sometimes questioned my own existence, and felt little shattered. Then, I remembered the person who made the conversation did not know me or my reasons for choosing something. 

In short, the habit of thinking is sometimes too much for me. Actions could have solved half of my thoughts. The lesson learned for the day, “Don’t think too much.”

Rain, Rain come again. Go away another day!

It's drizzling. What a day! I was never romantic with the idea of rain. I preferred to sleep when the rain hits the soil. But, "this" me finds it attractive. Also, it was sunny these days and the rain is blessing this place after long days. I miss the soil smell, yet the rain has made the trees look beautiful. The traces of dust on the leaves have disappeared. They look greener. 

I wish my mornings to be like this every day. Calm with the drizzles sprinkling around. The unlucky putt, I’m destined to sit in front of the computer on this beautiful day, type the endless number of words, in the name of ‘work’. While I was coming to work today, I was reading Sheryl Sandberg’s Lean In. One question stuck my mind – what will you do if you weren’t afraid? I have been thinking for so long to answer this question. Perhaps, I would have gone for long journeys. I would have resigned the job, sat at home, read n number of books, and written much better articles. I would have participated plenty of writers’ conferences, book festivals. The list goes on.

I still do most of these. But, the frequency is less as I have to balance it with schedules. In fact, I miss the beautiful mornings like today, when I could simply stare at the window or read something in the chillness of the rain, instead of worrying about meeting deadlines or the biometric attendance systems. Right now, I feel like reading Gabriel Garcia Marquez’s books. Don’t know why Marquez. But, there are piles of work to do. For now, Goodbye rain. But, keep raining. I would love to hear your noise while I aggressively hit the keyboard.

May 2016 turned me wiser

May 2016 was pretty slow. I had few setbacks, or rather I thought those are setbacks. They mounted up in my mind huge and I spent time in depression. Simultaneously, I have been reading a lot of books. You know, nothing else can cheer you up than a good book. Meanwhile, my closest friend gifted me an Amazon Kindle. So now, I have better reason to read. In fact, it was there on my bucket list for a long time. Somehow, I did not buy it. I thought my Amazon Kindle should have its original leather cover since it’s going to spend a lot of time in my hands. As usual, going for a branded cover was expensive, but it is worth. I loved my Kindle more when I adorned it with an elegant Navy Blue case.

That's my Kindle. I'm searching for a name for it..:)

On the other hand, I have messed my office work. I have been consistently late to office. I also couldn’t keep up my deadlines properly. I have no idea what’s coming down the pike. It’s the beginning of the new academic year and I have promised myself to become better. In fact, I thought if I don’t balance my office works properly, I will resign and sit at home. I know that is risky and could make me frustrated. But, I do not want to continue doing something when I cannot give my 100% to it. But, I love my workplace. So, I am taking some time to decide on it.

To talk about the books, I have started reading “Lean In: Women, Work, and the Will to Lead” by Nell Scovell and Sheryl Sandberg. Sheryl Sandberg is the Chief Operating Officer of Facebook. She has pointed out some relevant scenarios in women’s life. It’s way too interesting. There are some humoristic takes on things as well. I loved it more than “30 Women in Power”. I’m not sure why I’m getting pulled more into women leadership stories these days. Perhaps, I’m making a choice subconsciously. But, there is a feeling of ‘things-falling-into-places’. I can simply feel I am nearing something I always wanted. Touchwood. Let that be true.